It's ok. You can admit it. We have ALL been there, girlfriend!
I've come to terms with the fact that between myself and my hubby, I'm the one who is going to have to "handle" the life stuff. And I don't mind that, because let's be honest, if I am doing it, at least I know it's getting done. But for me, the times where I feel most stressed out over being the point person for our household in general is when I'm not taking care of ME. I'm not fitting in the stuff that fills my cup and brings me joy. When I'm feeling depleted, that's when I'm most likely to switch into pity party mode.
So, having learned to be a gal of SOLUTIONS rather than just fucking wallowing, my little ears perked up when a friend told me about an app that was keeping her organized. It's called Habit Bull. And it's the bomb. The free version allows you to track 5 daily habits, checking them off your list day by day, and allowing you to see a week at a time, to track how well you are sticking to them. Now, of course, you could use this to keep track of work or whether little Bobby did his homework, but I'm asking you to use it to take care of YOU every day. Pick 5 things that you keep saying you *should* make time for but don't, and make time for them! I check off exercise, meditation, my A Course In Miracles study, and some other form of personal growth book or listening (if you have no idea what I'm talking about, head over to my "grow thyself" tab on my website for some of my fave recommendations), and whether I ate according to my meal plan. Per my fitness philosophy, I'm not super rigid with this one. I just give myself a circle if I didn't go totally off the rails with pizza and beers. And if I did, that's totally ok. I just try to take note as to whether there are several days of that type of eating strung together, and when there is, I get real with myself and admit that I'm in a binge of some sort, and I gotta get my shit together.
Since I've started tracking my habits, I gotta tell ya, it's been really eye opening. The days I feel shitty, I look down at the app and realize I haven't been taking care of me. Days I feel good, you can bet that all of those circles are filled in. I really hope you'll give it a download and start taking care of you. It's not selfish, and it really will give you more energy to put towards taking care of everyone else.
Hi! I'm Andrea Cummings. I am passionate about living a healthy lifestyle that I can MAINTAIN and that still lets me feel like I'm not being deprived. I like to exercise, but I also love to eat (nachos!). My main focus is to be healthy, not skinny, and to help others do the same! I love Jesus, but I also say fuck a lot, so if you're offended, I may not be the gal for you.